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This is one of the best days of my life!! I got excepted into the RAD program. Praise God!! I graduate in 2007! Whoop!! After the horrible group interview, I was one of the 16 out of 47 selected. Needless to say I am so freakin' excited!! I was supposed to get the letter in June, but it came early in College Station, when it's supposed to come to Forney. It's been sitting there all week long while I've been worrying like crazy! But I'm so excited about it. In two years I'll graduate college and be working at Children's and I'll go to school at Midwestern State to become an RA.

It's official - I've moved out of my apartment! No more Briarwood and the crappy lightbulbs going out every week! I can't wait to move into my duplex with Stacy on August 13th!! It's going to be so much fun!

The Dancin' Ovations recital went great. I was stage manager this year and I must say that the show rocked hardcore. We got the entire thing done in two and a half hours - which has NEVER happened before. Hehe, I'd like to think it was me! Oh did I mention I worked it with a migraine, and I threw up three times before it started? Yeah, good times. You can't say I'm not dedicated. Dancin' Ovations celebrated it's tenth year. I can't believe it's already been ten years. It's crazy. It seems like just yesterday that I walked in there a nine year old little girl excited to sign up for dance. A lot of great memories there. It's one of my happy places for sure. I've danced there for eight years, taught there for four years, and I've done recital for two. I look forward to the many years to come!

I'm ready for summer. I'm working up at the dance studio from four to seven, Monday through Thursday, and working in the church nursery with the beautiful babies on Monday through Thursday from noon to three. A&P II during the second summer session - ugh, yeah, not looking forward to that at all! Fireworks from June 24th to July 4th. RAD orientation on June 29th. Forney High School graduation tomorrow. My family is great and my friends are so wonderful - especially my guys! Can't wait to go see them next weekend!
So excited about everything . . . life can't get any better!!!

Oh my gosh, summer is almost here!! May 10th is my last final! My A&P I final is Wednesday! Whoop! I've been studying since Friday with my Partner In Crime - DeAnn. I'm definitely ready for classes to be over. Then I have a few weeks of a break until summer school! I am NOT ready for A&P II.

I'm so excited about this summer. I'm working at Dancin' Ovations this summer! And I'm stage manager for the dance recital! I am SO happy about that!! I'm getting a gym membership so I can work out everyday. And I have A&P II on Mon, Tues, Wed, & Thurs mornings. Then fireworks will be here before I know it! And then August will be here and I'll be moving into the duplex with Stacy!! SO SO SO excited!! Umm, I officially have no lights in my apartment. The only lightbulbs that I have burning are in my lamps! I refuse to replace anymore before I move out!!

I realized that I love everyone so much. Momma mentioned it to me. When I mention people, I always say how much I love them. So, I'll love you so much even when you don't give a crap about me!

Here's an intersting story:
On Tuesday, one of my friends told me that she received her letter on Monday for an interview for the Radiology program. She said that two of her friends had gotten their letters as well. They were sent out last week and people had already called to schedule interviews. There were only 25 letters sent out and they will choose 18 from the interviews. Since I hadn't received my letter, I figured I wasn't in the race for a position in the program. So I tried to figure out why I wasn't good enough, what was wrong with me, what I was going to do next year, etc.

After much heartache Tuesday night (I mean tears flowing like crazy) I called the radiology office on Wednesday to see when we would hear about the program (yes, I played stupid). She said that the letters had already been sent and that most everyone has already called about an interview. She asked for my name, so I told her. She said that she DID send me a letter and that it must have gotten lost in the mail. So needless to say, I despise the US Postal Service at the moment!

I have an interview on Tuesday, May 17th at 11am. Please pray that I do well and that it's God's will that I be in this program! I want this more than anything.

Well, this entry has been all over the place, but that's how my brain is at the moment. Good luck to everyone on finals! I love you all!!

HELL YES!! That's all I have to say. This was my first time at Chilifest and I absolutely loved it! I was on a team with Ashley, Kacy, April, Jeanie, and Amanda. The girls were the Inseminatees, and the guys were the Inseminators. Friday night started off great. Jeanie started drinking before we even left, and she was feeling it by Walmart. Haha! Everyone else started drinking after we parked. WE FINALLY got there around 8pm and made the three mile hike to get to our site, S7. Saw random Forney people when we first got there, so that was a disappointment. I saw Adam when I first got there, so I was instantly excited to see someone I knew. We found our site and had introductions, and I swear right after that Mitch showed up. I honestly didn't expect to see him at all over the weekend, so it was a nice surprise. Talked to him for a few hours maybe. I didn't really realize how much I still missed him until I saw him. Anyway, it was good seeing him, brought back a lot of good memories. Got to see Erika again, Jason, and meet his girlfriend. Got to see Abby and some of my old friends. Friday night was sort of a blur. Lots of dancing, freezing!, walking around aimlessly, talking to random guys, getting hit on by many drunk guys, random sex (haha, wasn't me!), drinking, laughing hysterically, and good times had by all!! We left around three in the morning and got home around four in the morning.

Thankfully we got to sleep in our own beds. SO nice! We didn't get back to Chilifest until two on Saturday, so we missed Cross Canadian Ragweed. That was one of the few reasons I wanted to go. Saw Pat Green, no explanation needed there. We've all seen him. Saw Mitch again on Saturday and spent a little more time with him. We'll see if I ever hear from him again or see him . . . and I truly hope that I do! I really miss him, and I still care about him so much. Jeanie didn't go with us the second day. She had a little bit of a rough night. I hear quite a few did for that matter! Tracy Lawrence freakin' rocked hardcore! He was so great. It was the perfect way to end the night. The drive home was interesting. Was almost hit. Kacy, Ashley and I did our part though - call to 911 and following that idiot home that almost hit us, a truck full of guys, a police car, and almost took out the exit sign. We ended the night with a dinner from The Chicken, and Shakes!

Can't wait to top this year with Chilifest 2006!! Can I get a WHOOP!!!

WOW! So much has gone on in the past few weeks. So my birthday turned out so much better than expected. Thursday night Lauren and Adam threw me a little birthday party. We watched Superstar and played Pin the Tail on the Donkey. They got me an Easy Bake oven, so we baked a cookie!! Fun times were had by all! The next night was Margarita Night with the girls. It was kind of another mini-birthday party with me, Katie, Ashley, April, Kacy, and Jeanie. It was SO, and I repeat, SO much fun. Can't really disclose any details about the party. But let’s just sat it was interesting and we girls had a great time!

It’s Spring Break 2005 time!!

Just kept things kinda low key this week. Went home last Thursday and stayed until Tuesday. We had a really nice time. We celebrated Momma and Daddy’s birthday a little early. I made Momma a basket filled with all kinds of yummy shower stuff that I knew she liked. I bought Daddy a framed picture with an inscription. Don’t remember the exact words but it ended like this: You’ve only loved me part of your life, I’ve loved you all of mine. Needless to say, it brought tears to Daddy’s eyes, and every time he walks in his office, he can think of me. Mom and I got a whole lot closer this weekend. I rocked her world with something I told her, but at least she understands me now and things made since.

Left Tuesday after lunch with my grandparents and got back to CS about 3pm. Been cleaning and organizing since then. I did go out to dinner with Adam and Jennifer on Wednesday. Oh yeah, took crazy pictures in the mall. Then I spent five and a half hours talking with Adam, and I had a great time. He’s a great guy and I’m very lucky to have him as a friend. I really enjoyed talking with him. I’m still really shy around him though, but I guess that will come with time. Went over to Katie’s on St. Patrick’s day and had dinner and played Moods with her, Graham, Lexie, and Tom. And we had a blast! Then came home and watched a movie with Roddy, his friend John and his girlfriend. Last night went over to Drew’s and watched movies with him, Roddy, and Big Mike. Was home by midnight – that’s nice for a change!

Went to church today at FBC College Station with Adam and I loved it. And I think that he enjoyed it too. Everyone there is so nice and friendly. I might start going there instead of Central. It was nice going with someone too. Usually I go alone to church every Sunday, so it was nice going with someone for a change. It was nice going with Adam – he’s such a gentleman and a pleasure to be around. Sometimes I forget that there are guys who actually know how to treat a lady.

Until next time . . . God Bless!!

So yesterday was my birthday. I turned 20. Worthless 20. I'm gonna agree with Tom: 20 is the crappiest birthday ever!! You're too old to blame a stupid decision on "being a teenager", and you're too young to blame something stupid on being "legally drunk". Therefore, I'm looking forward to 21!! 364 days!! I actually had a really great birthday. Daddy called me at 7:55 in the morning to sing Happy Birthday to me. He asked me if I had any regrets or any last wishes as a teenager. Then, at 7:58, he told me it was too late, I was already 20. I love my daddy!! Everyone and their mom called me. I don't think I've ever heard my cell ring so much! And I got plenty of messages on AIM and facebook. Katie and Graham took me out to dinner at Olive Garden and Lexi, Tom, Stacy, and Lauren went too. A great time was had by all! Thanks everyone for making my day so special!!

Stacy and I signed on the cute little duplex yesterday. It is red brink and has blue shutters and a blue door. We are the girls of 2322 Pintail!! I am so, so excited!! Can't wait to move in August 15th!! Freakin' excited.

School is keeping me so busy!! I still hate speech - that will never change!! I'm learning so much in A&P. It's all memorization. My TA, Diana, and Dr. J both really like me and think I'm smart. I love texas history. I learn so many interesting facts in there. My scavenger hunt is due on Tuesday. I freakin' LOVE first aid!! I have the greatest partner in the world - Leslie!! We laugh and joke, but we get things done. For example: Gotta love CPR review and the random two partner CPR on a child. I'm doing the compressions and Leslie's doing the breaths. Oh wait, Latterman says for Leslie to take over completely on the count of three.
One, Two, Three!!
Leslie: Four, Five, Breathe.
Me: "That was smooth."
Leslie: "Yeah, we work like that!"
We have so much in there, and we learn a lot too. We're definitely a fun class.


Umm, let's see, Spring Break is in like a week. I should probably make plans. Katie and I are going to Galveston for a few days. Apparently Lauren and Roddy are planning a little late birthday celebration tomorrow night. Margarita night with the girls on Friday!! Whoop!!

Until next time . . . I love you all!!

I got my hair cut!! It's totally different!! It's not what I went in there for, but it looks hot!! A friend described my hair as porn star hair! Love it!! My Valentine's Day was wonderful. A special someone made me feel so great! Went to Northgate last night . . . had a freakin' awesome time!! I'll be 20 a week from Tuesday (March 1). Yeah, I don't wanna be 20, just 21. Oh well. More to come on the living situation.
That's it for now.

Wow, have things been crazy around here lately. Didn't feel the need to update, but now I have lots to talk about. Classes have been going great. I love all of them. Although I feared giving speech number one, I most definitely made a 100 on it. I like that class. My friend Melissa from speech is awesome, and this cute guy Gary flirts with me, and I don't mind. A&P is going realatively well. Lots of info to memorize, but I learn quite a bit of interesting stuff. And my two lab partners rock! I freakin' love First Aid!! At first, I hated it, but now, I really love it. We're doing CPR now, and although we're learning, we're having so much fun doing it. And, I must mention my love for my Texas History class. I've done the hard part for my Scavenger Hunt around Texas, now I just have to do the right ups. I like that class too. Overall, I'm extremely pleased with my classes!

Valentine's Day is tomorrow and I despise the holiday. Although, I do have a date for tomorrow night. Nothing exciting, just low-key. I need to call Jay and Derek tomorrow and with them a happy 20th birthday. My birthday's coming up too - March 1st, and I'm going to be 20.

So I had planned to live with my friend Rachel. Here lately though, I've had a few reservations. My room would have been tiny and I wouldn't have had my own bathroom. Plus, it wouldn't be my house, it would be Rachel's. So I've decided to live with my old suitemate from the dorms, Stacy. We've been looking for somewhere to live - apartments and duplexes. We've found the most ADORABLE duplex, and hopefully we're going to sign on it on my birthday - March 1st!! I am so excited!! It's a two bedroom, two bath, with a big backyard. So freakin' excited . . .

That's about it for now kids. Love you all.

It's been an interesting weekend thus far. Went over to Brant's for Roddy's party Friday night. Had a nice time. Interesting night too.

Last night was interesting as well. Stayed in and did homework. Not too much to say. Things change...things will be good. I'm just lucky to have the best friend ever.

I have been so busy here lately!! Keeping busy with homework and reading. Unfortunately my speech prof thought my speech was good, so I have to give it on Wednesday. I made out a study schedule for each day. It should make my life a little easier. Roddy's birthday was yesterday. I was over there at midnight with my birthday cake to wish him a happy 21st birthday. We went out last night to Roadhouse for dinner - and we had a blast!! Lauren and I got him a gag gift. We did a boobie theme. We got him a boobie koozie, Pert nipple peppermints, Boobie Bait (flavored massage oils), and edible panties. Yeah, we thought it'd be funny if he opened it in the restaurant - and it was hilarious! Roddy drank one drink for his birthday, and we all had our cameras out to capture the monumental moment. Despite my migraine, I had a great time.

I really like Brant now. He's a great guy and I look forward to getting to know him. Had a really great convo with Mike and Roddy. I love Mike so much. I love Roddy so much too! He's such a great guy and way too good for me. I don't deserve him as a friend. Met Lauren's boyfriend last night. He's really nice. Now I can put a face with a name. Saw Bill last night for the first time since we've been back from the break - don't worry he doesn't talk to me anymore. Oh well. I can only care so much about people, it's up to them whether or not they care about me back.

Dang Roddy being right about everything. I do care about people and I love them, even when they don't give a flip about me. What can I say, it's a characteristic God gave me. I just usually end up getting hurt by it too. Sad, but oh well. I have no regrets - for anything. I haven't been happy about myself for a while now. I should probably change some things I'm doing, but I can't. The only good thing right now is that Roddy makes me feel so good about myself. That's a hard thing for me to say because not too much makes me happy. True the little, simple things in life make me happy. I just wish I could be happy about everything else.

Brant's tomorrow night for Roddy's party. Should be fun. I'm actually looking forward to it. Frat party Saturday night with the boys - yess!! Please pray for my daddy that everything will be okay and that his tests will be negative. He's like me, he worries, and then I worry about him.

I'm out. Love you all. God Bless!!

Haven't updated in a while, so here's my weekend:

Friday: Didn't do yoo much during the day. Mostly errands. Although I did get Roddy's birthday present. So excited. Had girls night with Lauren and we had so much fun. Think:: movies, music, cds, frozen yogurt, pineapple, talking, and planning. Definitely a fun night!

Saturday: Laundry. Homework and reading. More errands. Saturday night was the most fun EVER!! Went over to Rachel's. Spent three hours with her and Chalupa. Saw all of her pictures of Bolivia. I would love to go there and do something like that. Then we went to dinner at El Chico's. Later on that night, Ashley called me and asked me to go with her to Antonio's. So she, Kacy, Jeanie, and I headed up to Northgate. Had the best four hours!! The music at Antonio's was off the hook. We jammed the entire time - yeah, it definitely brought us back. Met Roddy, Mike, Christine, and Drew there. I mean, I literally met Drew - he's a cool guy. A great dancer. We watched Roddy and Drew dance all night and it was great. I realized how much I love Roddy. Watching him talk to everyone on Northgate, because he knew like everyone, was fun. He's a great guy and I wish I could be more like him. It was definitely THE MOST FUN NIGHT. I think we might make it a tradition.

Sunday: Ran more errands. Did homework. Nothing too exciting. Looking forward to Roddy's birthday dinner. Did go shopping with Ashley and went to dinner with her and Megan. That was fun. And then I got a MAJOR migraine - which is still present.

Today I woke up at 3am with a pounding migraine. Took both of the pills I'm allowed to take. Finally feel asleep and woke up around noon. Did a little homework. Went to A&P. Dissected a fetal pig in lab. Usually I'm not at all queasy, but the formaldehyde was making be sick because I was already nauseated by my migraine. Then I came home and wrote part of my speech. Stupid stupid speech class. I swear - speech will be the death of me!! Along with all of my other classes of course! My head hurts . .

I've sold my soul to academics!! It's official! I will have absolutely no free time this semester. I have to study all the time to keep up. I went to Public Speaking and Anatomy & Physiology I for the first time yesterday. So my speech class is all outside work. I'm kinda freakin' out about it. But Roddy seems to think that everything will be okay. Not quite sure how A&P will go, but I do know that A&P is going to take quite a bit of studying. I am organized though. I've written down all of my assignments for the next six weeks though, so that's a good thing. Lauren cancelled on our fun night last night because she got a date, so I went out with Ashley instead. We had a blast!! We went to dinner at Casa Ole (our place). We went shopping and I got an outfit to wear when we go out for Roddy's 21st birthday. Then we went back to her apartment and we chilled. A good time was had by all.

Today I went to First Aid and TX History. History got a little more complex today. Apparently I have to go on a scavenger hunt all over the state of Texas. I have to earn 350 points for my project. The further away you travel to a site, the more points you get. So I'm planning trips to Dallas, Ft. Worth, Austin, Houston, San Antonio, and Galveston to get points. Plus, I have to have a picture of each side with me in it and then do a write up about how that location is important to Texas. Good times. So, who's going on a roadtrip on me?

Tonight I went shopping again with Ashley. I love hanging out with her. Bought a purse and a cowboy hat - yeehaw!! Then Ashley and I went to Petco and bought her a frog. OOh OOh OOh :: I bought a digital camera today! It should come in next week sometime. I am so excited!!

Quote of the night :: Friendship is a TWO WAY highway ::

Didn't update yesterday. Didn't do too much either. Spent the night before talking with Roddy. Literally, spend the entire night talking. I love him oh so much!! I bought my frog yesterday. He's a Dwarf African Clawed Frog named Alfred. He and my betta Edward get along great. Apparently I have to feed him bloodworms - which doesn't excite me at all. Went out to dinner at Bennigan's with Stacy, Rachel, and her lab partner. Went over to Lauren's last night. It was nice. We talked about things and I feel so much better about everything now. Saw her skydiving video - absolutely incredible. Maybe one day I'll go, who knows?


Today was the first day of classes for 2005. Not entirely sure how the semester will be. First Aid promises to be useful. My prof is Latterman, and I'm not really sure about him. But, I do get certified by Red Cross in First Aid and CPR, which is useful for Children's. Texas History is going to be great!! I'm going to love it and learn so much! I had previously thought it to be a blow off class, but it's going to be rather involved. I have my textbook and three outside readings. And 50% of my grade for the class comes from outside readings. Oh, and did I mention the major project grade?? Haha, but I'm excited . . . at least for now. I'll prolly retract that statement later in the semester.

Tomorrow I have Public Speaking and Anatomy & Physiology I. I absolutely DREAD speaking in front of people. And A&P isn't going to be an easy class. I guess we'll see how truly stressed I will be this semester. Oh well. Going to get ice cream/frozen yogurt with Rachel and Whitney - my future roomies! Then maybe Luaren might come over and I can do a little studying. Ooh, tomorrow night is fun night with Lauren. Should be . . . interesting to say the least!! ::Excited about the semester::

So, I started this journal thing. Who knows how long I will keep it up. Had fun today. Went shopping with Katie. We got our annual Anti-Valentine's Day panties from Victoria's Secret. Although, she has a boyfriend, so we might have to change the title of our tradition. I got a gun for my nintendo (so excited about that!). Went shopping for groceries with Katie and Graham. Went back to Graham's house and cooked dinner. Then played a few games of Scrabble. A good time was had by all. Came home and went to Roddy's. Lauren, Brant, Pat, Mike and Roddy were all there. Showed up, felt like I didn't belong, so left and came home. I always feel like that - like I'm not good enough.
This semester is prolly gonna be pretty crappy. Not gonna lie. It's already off to a bad start. I don't really care about anyone else anymore. It's apparent that no one cares about me anyway. Well, I know Roddy cares. And I care about him. I love him so much. It just pisses me off. I care about everyone and where does it get me? Screwed over. Nice, huh? So from now on, it's fend-for-yourself time.
I already feel like crap by myself, and I don't need anyone else to make me feel that way. But I guess it's too late. Things are going to change. I'm going to change. I want to be happy again. I just don't know how to get there . . .